You'll never understand until it happens to you.
Go to sleep with a prayer.
Pray about everything, talk to God. Just let it out, all the good, all the bad. He’s always listening, prayer does change things. Even if you think God isn’t listening, let me tell you he always is. He’s always working on something for you. Breathe & ask for forgiveness and also forgive others. Remember, tomorrow is a brand new day. Start fresh & clean.